GIVE ME A HELL YEAH!

Last night I went to an awesome rock concert for the first time EVER! It was the Puddle of Mudd and Saving Abel concert opened by Rev Theory and Tyler Read.  Don't know them??? Let me school you in a little bit!

TYLER READ -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TFqM_ohT0UM

Rev Theory -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vq918gua3s&feature=related

Saving Abel -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6L3L7DFe9lM

Puddle of Mudd - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G05Ovw-beg0&feature=related

With all of these overly talented bands in one place my mind was boggling!!! And let me tell you with that base going my boobs were vibrating and my heart was falling in and out of my chest! And on top of all the amazing music it was quite the sensation!

It's strange. I have no idea what it is, if it's just the vocal talent or the spot light or what but every single one of those lead singers were undyingly hot!! I've never been one to be into mohawks but if Rev Theory's leader singer didn't make my heart swoon!!! And I've never heard in concert a band that sounded more like their CD than anything else like Tyler Read did. Truly Amazing!! Saving Abel was so good at captivating you more than making you want to jump around. It's like when they started all I could do was watch in awe. And Puddle of Mudd sure knows how to tease a crowd!! They know exactly how to make you squirm when they end their show not playing their most wanted songs just to get us to chanting, "PSYCHO!!!!" and ontop of it getting us involved with 'She Fucking Hates Me' they were the heros that night!

MOSH PITS!

Ever been in one?? I hadn't till that night! In fact, the last mosh pit was started ACCIDENTALLY by me and PURPOSELY by my friend Brad. Security had to even pull one guy out for being too rough lol. I was also wanted up for body surfing but I thought maybe that's just too far for my first time at a rock concert lol.

Memorable Quotes!!!

Rev Theory -- "Have you ever been in a shitty relationship where you just can't leave? Maybe she's too nice of a person or he's got such a big heart. Or MAYBE . . . *places his hand on his chest and travels down his stomache to his pants* ITS JUST THAT DAMN GOOD!!!" (My favorite of out them all!!!! AND THE SONG IS FAVORITE DISEASE!!!)
                   -- "This next song is for someone we all lost and miss very much. We wrote this for him" (Song was Broken Bones)

Saving Abel -- "This next song is for all the soldiers out there! Any of you who have brothers, sisters, fathers, mothers, cousins, nephews, or neices, THIS IS FOR THEM!!!!" (Song is 18 Days)





THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!


-Stasia Lynn Hube

I finished this drawing only moments ago. I need to know what you see from it and it still needs a name. Be my inspiration :)

- Stasia Lynn Huber

I have a special... well I can't say treat because there are always those of you who won't appreciate what I have to give. FIRST.... A POEM!!!

Our Door

Remember how scared we were?
And how the first step was through a door?
Remember how you were always my last thought?
Or how you always kept me wanting more?

But, just like the leaves in the fall
As fate should have it, we drifted apart
I was pushed back through the door
But, left on the other side was my heart

And all I can do is wait
Wait, till maybe someday it'll open wide
And maybe instead of my heart back in my chest,
Will it be in your hands forever by my side

BY: Stasia Lynn Huber

NEXT: A VIDEO . . . of my SINGING. The first time ever on this blog! You should feel special :)

It's been awhile since I last posted. My last posts have been quite evil actually. Not like me normally but that's a very sensitive subject and I just got fed up ya know? Anyways, It said at the bottom of the last post you'd be getting a poem. Well, I have written a poem but it's got a story behind it. I'd like to share this story with you quick.

STORY:

    Girl meets guy. Girl and Guy fall in love!! Yay!! Guy has a horrible past. Boo!!!! His past catches up with him and he's super sad. CRY!! He begins to drink away his sorrows. GASP!!! Girl is still there for Guy. Pretty soon things start looking up again. Guy's life is back on track. Then it starts to fall apart again!!! This time he loses EVERYTHING. All he has left is his girl and he doesn't think he's good enough for her reguardless what she says. Soon he feels so bad he tells her he's thinking about committing suicide. She tries her hardest to comfort him and tell him why that would make things only worse. She tries to remind him about all the sweet things he used to do, say, and soon she begins to quote him. One of his many wonderful quotes that will always stick with her, even after his death, is, "Tomorrow Is Another Day." Basically he was saying if you don't like today, make tomorrow better. If tomorrow sucks too, then there's another day to give it a shot. Unfortunately, for this wonderful man, his tomorrows ended. But hers' will forever go on, in the memory of him.

POEM

Tomorrow's Another Day

I walk this lonely road once again
Missing and loving you my dearest friend
With only one thought on my mind I walk this way
What you said to me, "Tomorrow is another day."

And no such statement could be more true
Because it's been another long depressing day without you
And to know tomorrow will be just the same
I can't help but think life is nothing but a cruel game

You were so different and special to me
It's almost hard to believe you're not a dream
Sometimes I wish you would stop crossing my mind
Yet I can't help but paint you upon this canvas of mine

Maybe someday I'll be able to move on from you
I tell everyone I'm happy but both you and I know that's not true
Maybe someday I won't have to wake up to the memory of your face
Someday, I just hope, all this pain will erase

But until then I'll continue to paint your heart
And I'll still feel you with me even though we're worlds apart

By: Stasia Huber

So, I kinda freaked out last time I posted. I was super upset. Now that I'm older I see how horrible all the women are that think they can just walk into our lives and take everything we got. Like they deserve it or something. Well I have PLENTY of reasons why this current wife of my father's is NOT suitable for such things.

1) She shouldn't even be here. I cannot state as to why, but believe me, concerning REAL solid reasons, she should not be here. I'm not just saying this because I don't want her here, she ACTUALLY SHOULDN'T BE!! (Swear I'm not lying)
2) She was a horrible mother to her first born -- She left him. Nuff said.
3) She has NO job. She is unemployed and only cleans the house. That is it! And because of her unemployment she should not tell my father to tell me (YEAH SHE CAN'T EVEN SAY TO MY FACE WHAT SHE WANTS ME TO DO) to do this or do that. Those of us who HAVE a job and I also have school right before that job and have to rush over straight to work afterwards, for 4 hours of grumpy old people and LOTS of cleaning and running around, do NOT want to be told what to do. I want to eat, take a shower, do my homework, maybe a bit of laundry, maybe a little t.v. and go to bed! Talk to me on my days off!!!
4) She's a germ-a-phobic psycho!!!! OMG I left a hair in the shower! Well guess what neat freak, I've gotten out of the shower with one of your HUGE black hairs on me! You know how fucking sick that is? Atleast my hair isn't coming off on you. Know how I know that? It's because you inspect the whole bathroom for one thing that you don't like before you do anything in it. You probably can't even take a piss if heaven for bid, I have a peice of clothing still on the floor.
5) I hate it ABSOLUTELY HATE IT when I'm told this is your house. You know what?! I WAS HERE FIRST! And guess what else... I'm ALLOWED to be here. And I HAVE TO BE! AND I FUCKING DESERVE TO BE!!! I'm tired of my father saying "It's Nineth's and My house." NO! She doesn't even help PAY for it. Atleast I'd help when we do have money problems! (Ahem, who just gave YOU, Nineth, $100 so you can buy groceries tomorrow? Yeah that's right, ME!)
6) If I find your brat for a daughter in my room one more time because you're too irresponsible to watch her while I'm at school or at work, I'm going to say something. Last time I almost bit your head off for being a bad mom. Yeah, and trust me, I know a thing or two about bad mothers. Remember how it went??
Dad : Could you take this upstairs, it's yours. Vanessa was playing with it.
Me : Oh, I wonder how she got it. Was up in my room again I see.
Nineth : Maybe if you didn't leave your door open. (OH NO YOU DIDNT!)
Me : Maybe if you watched your daughter!!! (I SO WISH I WOULDA SAID THIS! But, I unfortunately was raised better. Given my father was present. I'll have you know I MUMBLED IT UNDER MY BREATH!)
Next time!! I'm not mumbling. I'ma fucking scream it so the whole world can see you can't even watch your daughter WHEN THATS ALL YOU HAVE TO DO WHILE SITTING AT MYYYY HOUSE!!!!!!
7) I can't stand it when you piss my dad off because you haven't grown up yet and started acting your age. YOU ARE 32 FUCKING YEARS OLD!! GROW THE HELL UP! YOU HAVE 3 KIDS!!!! ONE YOU LEFT FOR YOUR OWN SELFISH WANTS!!!! If you mope around and pussy fit because my dad is tired AFTER WORK, YEAH A JOB! EVER HEARD OF ONE?, to take you to Sioux Falls just so you can go spend HIS money and HIS gas and HIS time, I'm going to chew your ass out and tell you what's up because I'm done being silent. Being silent all these years got my and my brother abused! Yeah, our dad didn't even know till a few years ago about all his ex girlfriends that abused us. Would you hit us too if we were younger? I bet you've wanted to but won't cause, A) I'm bigger than you (not by weight, no you've got ugly pregnant fat. Yeah I just made fun of you. Something I don't normally do, but I really can't even stand the sight of you it pisses me off anymore) and B) You know I'd hit back and harder. and then C) Tell my father because I'm done being fucking quiet!!
8) AND DONT ACT LIKE YOU WANT TO BE MY FRIEND BECAUSE YOU ARE NOTHING OF THE SORT!
9) AND YOU'RE NOT MY MOTHER! I've crossed out all the Love, Dad and MOMs on my birthday and xmas cards because you are NOT my mother. You are nothing near it. You don't even act like it!!! You act like I'm just this girl living in this house. News flash, I'm the only girl in this house that matters most. You do a thing to me your ass is out of here. I've gotten women out of my house faster than they got in. Don't think youre any different just because you haven't hit me. I dont even know why dad thinks you're a mother figure for me. You don't teach me anything, hell I have nicer hair than you!! You do nothing, YOU DONT EVEN COOK FOR ME!!! I come home so fucking hungry because I had to SERVE people food instead of EAT! Yeah, there were times I didn't eat when there was food downstairs but you're such a stranger in my house I don't know if you made it for all of us or just your kids. They eat enough. You don't clean anything for me, you dont buy me anything (BECAUSE YOU DONT HAVE ANY MONEY!) You don't do anything motherlike for me. MY Grandma is more of a mother than you'll ever be. She took care of me when I was sick, fed me when I was hungry, put a roof over my head, checked in on me when I was out too late, AND SHE ACTUALLY TALKED TO ME!!! Like face to face OH MY GOD NO WAY!!
8) I'm tired of your SPANISH TALK! IT PISSES ME OFF! Like just your voice. I love my friend Javier and don't mind him talking in spanish, it's actually kinda cute, but you... ugh... you sound so different when you talk in spanish, so smug, like you're so sure, that it really pisses me off.

Now I'm sure it's only fair for me to put a reasons you may KINDA deserve to live in this house

1) My dad loves you and he thinks you actually love him. Although I'm almost possitive you dont. You'll leave him too. That is if I don't chase you out first.
2) Why I don't want to chase you out -- I have one more year, and if you're gone, my dad will be all alone. I know he can survive just fine alone, but I also see how much he doesn't want to be. Only reason my brother and I went through so much abuse and stuff is because we knew him having someone made him happier and not so lonely, thus we kept our tongues bit. A call two or 3 times a week won't be enough for him. BUT DON YOU THINK I WONT DRIVE YOUR ASS OUT!!! A year is plenty of time for him to find another chick. My dad's VERY handsome, especially for 41!! He's already had your friends after him, you even said so yourself. It'd be no problem.


OKAY! So obviously i know she'll never read this ( DUH SHE CANT READ OR TALK ENGLISH VERY WELL) and I hope to God my dad never reads this ( I know it'd break his heart, even though he'd be reluctant to admit it, that I don't like his wife)
No I'm not jealous of her at all. I'll admit I do get a bit jealous when he strives for Vanessa's attention and doesn't give it. Even more so when she wants it and HE GIVES IT! He always says I'm not his babygirl anymore. I can't sit on your lap for too long or your leg hurts... You can't carry me anymore... You don't even tell me you love me everyday anymore. And these constant "You're just like your mom" comments you have thrown at me about 3 times in the past 2 weeks WHEN I'VE DONE NOTHING WRONG hurts. I dont know if you're joking but I'm trying my hardest to brush them off BUT IT REALLY IS HARD! What am I supposed to say to that? I'm not, but you won't listen to that. I'm so much better than her!! Maybe I have her eyes and her smile and jawline but I have your skintone and I have your nose and grandmas eyebrows and grandpas eye color and most importantly, even though you're not in my life enough to tell, I'm just like your personality wise. I know Kirby always says he is, but frankly he just has your stubbornness. I try too hard to help everyone, people tell me I can't I DO, People say I'm wrong, I think I'm right and I have reason behind why I think so that MOST of the time makes sense, I'm not a follower, yeah I love being with courtney and sometimes I can't tell her no, but it's only because I try so hard to please everyone.


MY NEXT POST : POEM

We don't need you

                                  You're not supposed to even be here

GET OUT OF OUR LIVES

                                                                            I Hate You

                   You do nothing for me!!

You're NOT MY MOTHER!

                                                                                                                   Go back to where you're supposed to be!

             I WAS HERE FIRST!


                                                             THIS WAS MY HOUSE FIRST!!

                               You're a stupid woman who needs to grow up!

                                                                                                                                                          You don't deserve to be in this family!

       We were a family before you ever came along!
                                                                                                          We never needed you before!


                And I'll have all the f***ing animals I want!                                                                You're so immature!

                                                          You don't teach me things

                                                                                                                                  You just throw your germ phobias in my face

 GROW UP AND ACT YOUR AGE!

                                        I Hate you
                                                                                                       You're not my mother

You don't even want to be

                                                                                                                                                     You're just like the rest of them

                I'm just too big for you to hit...

                                                                         You're not my mother!!!!!!!!!!!

                            You never will be!

                                                                                                          I 
                                                                                                            
                                                                                                                                  HATE
   
                                                                                                                                                                   YOU


Just go away......

    I never thought this could happen to me. I'm waking up to the thought of a guy. A man to be precise. He is the only thought that gets me through the long days and the one I turn to when I have no one else to turn to and to think I could be losing someone like him in my life is like watching a loved one die. Dying a little inside yourself and he is taking my heart with him. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
    To meet someone who is so opposite from you and so much like you at the same time is probably the best way of describing a perfect match. If that makes any sense? Sure, magnets of opposites attract but like a magnet the other side is positive when the other is negative making this all the more probable.
    So, what happens when everything is going great and then all of a sudden someone thinks too much and eventually doubts begin to stir in their mind and they think, "Hey, this could totally crash and burn?" And then they ask you where it is all going and how it is all going to work. How do you answer that without waiting it out? But, they're tired of waiting and so are you and it just makes everything harder to understand. When everything was so perfect one day and so horrible the next, how do you just brush it off and walk back up that road with a smile while you know the other is probably drinking away their sorrows?
    This just might be the Starbucks Mocha Frapp in my system talking a bunch of jumble, but I don't think anyone deserve my love more than this man who has gone through so much. A hard life has made him into the person he is today and he is simply amazing and I want him to know that everywhere he goes because not just anyone can have something as precious as my love. If this is going to end at his hands, then may his hands be full when he walks away as my chest will be empty. I love him so much and these are the days I'll forever remember.